This Sucks

So, I'm here in Lexington. I arrived yesterday and met Diana's family for the first time. What lovely people they are. Here they have true strangers come into town and they included us in every aspect of planning the services.

I still can't believe that I'm here for this. I can't stand it, I really can't. I'm not angry at all. It's just that when the moments come to think about the reason for this trip, I'm still in a little bit of disbelief. Stacy even heard me mutter under my breath "this sucks" at one point. And that sums it up for me. This truly sucks.

I cannot think of a worse reason to come visit the home of an old friend, to meet her incredible family and see all the old photos of her life. Which is why I'm thankful that Stacy and Joy are here. I don't know how I would be able to get through this without them.

This sucks.